…Tired. I’m still fighting this flu and right now, it feels like I’m on the losing end. Neither Mr. KB or I are sleeping very well right now and that’s not helping us get healthy again. I’d really like to nap right now while my smalls do the same, but I know that I won’t.
…Sad. Wondering what would drive my son’s friend to hang himself yesterday. The devastation he has left behind is overwhelming, vast and so, so sad. I didn’t know the boy well, but he had been to our house a couple of times and just goes to prove once again that appearances can be deceiving and we never really know what is lurking in someone else’s mind. Depression is a fucker that lies to us and makes us think there is no hope and now this boy’s parents, siblings, girlfriend, and friends have to live with the result of his depression and it’s lies forever.
…Grateful. That my children and loved ones are safe and sound right now.
…Regretful. For getting angry at Rigatoni for spilling his rice all over the floor and then being silly about cleaning it up. Yes, he needed to clean it up, but was it really worth getting angry at him for? I don’t think so.
…Hopeful. That I can shake this headache and feel more human again soon.
…Excited. To get things done. Not negating the recent tragedy in Georgina, it’s important for me to remember that there are so many wonderful and positive things in our future and to focus my energy on feeling positive and happy about all of the good things in my life.
I got the idea to do a “Right now I am…” post from Kristen over at The Frugal Girl (thanks, Kristen! 🙂 ). It was a lot of fun writing it out and really did help me to focus myself a little better. Trying something new, getting myself out of my comfort zone is hard, but so worth it. I really should remember that!